I tink i really sux in relationships. im a failure in relationships. i always act on impluse and after tat regret wat i have done. and blame myself for everyting tat has happen. im stubborn, indecisive. really feel like crying now. when i reach home, still must see the black face of my parents or watever shit. and u still keep on asking me to improve my relationship with them. you dont understand me at all. i cant take this anymore. why cant i just have a peaceful life? why must my life always be so complicated? i am a playgirl. so guys if u dun wan to get hurt, stay away from me. i miss all my friends badly....
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:08:00 PM
For the past week i oni start to sleep when the sun has come out. and i always wake up oni after 12. but still, i work, which normally starts at 6pm, and after wk go out...dearie said i must be more responsible towards my wk...which ytd i nv went for wk...but spent time with him at west coast playground....we are still young kids at heart!!
for whoever or watever out there, say me childish or irresponsible or never grow up or dun appreciate parents efforts or worst type of pple or gone case, i dun care ok. if u tink just by reading my blog u koe a lot about me, you are veri wrong. so just get on with yr life n i will get on with mine.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`2:22:00 PM
ytd was veri tired after my first day of wk at sakaae sushi...my toes hurts a lot and a lot of blisters bcos nv wear socks...must greet all the customers with tat jap greeting....i cannot take orders as i am still a newbie...basically oni can clear the tables and do those basic stuff like take ice water or green tea for them when they come in....then after dun koe how long still got test....they give me tat menu n all the jap names to go home and learn....
i got learn jap before leh but all forgotten liao....but nvm lah...nothing is too difficult for me...lolz....but a bit sian when sometimes i tink....pay not so gd also....haiz.....found out tat 80% of the pple wking there are malaysians....and they speak cantonese....
the remaining days of tis week everyday im wking....but luckily for a few hrs oni lah everyday...not so bad....hope i can find one more job to wk soon....to idle my holiday away....i have been meeting my sweetie practically everyday since the day we got 2gather....but i dun feel bored at all....instead i tink i enjoy his company more n more....oni if he dun act so childish at times anymore...oni i will koe......
mifenmei scribbles off*at`2:38:00 PM
seems like i got a feeling of drifting further and further from my frienz...sometimes u thought tat u koe them....but then actually u will not koe how they tink of u....why must it be like tat....
like the chinese say....after one wave has subsided another wave came along....i seem to have endless problems.....
becoming more and more lazy....due to having of my bike....i tink i will be getting worse as time goes by........
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:34:00 PM
if u wan to critrise me by all means. i am born stupid with no mind to think with. im sorry tat im not like some pple who really do their best in their studies and aim for first class honours. i dun haf any high expectations of myself. i cant study. if tats wat u wan to koe. im a total gone case happy?
mifenmei scribbles off*at`9:00:00 AM
FIRST OF ALL i would like to say tat different pple have certainly different lifestyles and different styles of living, different goals. Studying a degree sure leads to a career later on in life, having a good degree sure will help u in a good career. Next step after getting a degree doesnt mean establishing a career. Different pple haf different mindset. Sure, i complain about tis n tat, i complain about parents not giving me enough pocket money, i complain about not enough money to spend, where some pple will tink omg at my age still wan to ask parents for money. sure thing.
and oh ya it is good to save money. spend unnecessary cash? wat is unnecessary? oh ya and i tink im really really veri irresponsible by running away from problems and stuff. oh and i sure dun give any reason for things tat are getting out of hand. i sure dont.
im not lost at all. i know wat i am doing. use my brain? sorry but im damn stupid to tell u the truth. and for your information my bike is not bloddy at all. i can complain all i wan, but i earn my own living. i dun have the need to explain everyting to everyone. and since you tink im a gone case, why even bother to give me advice? there is no need to, no need to at all to do tat. I dun need tis kind of shit from you.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`11:51:00 PM
went rush ytd..it was fun!! long time nv go liao...although is crowded...although still need to queue up when i reach...but then...it was ok as i could meet up with all my chionging kakis...but forget to take photo!!
later going west mall dye my hair liao...tis time is not any outrangeous colour or wat...is must dye back to black...im sad... =(
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:56:00 PM
Went for my first bikers outing last nite...total in all 19 bikes turn up....we met at pasir panjang food centre for dinner....ate seafood....we put all our barang barang and helmets on 1 table and occupied 3 tables....the guys ordered so much....like kangkong...cockles..stringray...chicken wings...rice...but all were swept away after a while...haha....
next stop was east coast mac....it was funny and a sight to experience so mani bikes riding 2gather at one time....like an illegal gathering...haha...great experience for me...but of cos we are all safe riders, we even haf a leader tat leads the way and some1 at the back to make sure no one gets lost...we slacked n tok at mac....heng not me the oni gal...still got 2 more gals riding same as me...cool....after tat...some of them wanted to go jb pump petrol....the rest of us stayed behind...
last stop was yishun dam...a photo all our bikes were taken...so can u imagine...its a big group of us...waited for the rest to return from jb...then we went home....by the time i reach home...it was around 6am....was so tired from riding long distance.....but it was fun....made a lot of new frienz too!!
1st stop: Pasir panjang food centre
2nd stop: East coast Mac
3rd stop: Yishun dam
mifenmei scribbles off*at`4:54:00 PM
So now everyting is my fault. wat the fuck do u mean tat im such a person?? since when did i avoid u and nv ans yr calls? pls dun assume everyting tat u tink it is. i shut all contacts with u just to spend quality time with another person?? dun need to wish me all the best with him at all, and there's no need to. im not even in a fucking relationship rite now. but since u wan me to...then i will fufill yr wish then.
who else will ever koe how i really feel? are you in my shoes to understand how i really feel? you cared for me, you loved me..ya, i said i needed some time, i didnt wan history to repeat itself again...then another guy comes along and told me the same ting, tat he cared for me and he loved me...and u said wish me all the best wat is tis suppossed to mean? u tink tis whole ting is easy for me? i dun really wan to hurt anyone so some1 tell me wat should i do. and as i said
DUN JUDGE ME IF U DUN KOE ME. dun assume all gals are the same. i koe the feeling of being hurt. so i dun wan tat to happen to any of my frienz but wat can i do? u teach me la. pls im asking u to teach me. yr frienz could tell u tat im a gal tat cheat pple's feeling, leave u for another guy, u tink i dun koe? leave u for another guy...am i even attached now?
i really dun understand wat the hell is tis suppossed to mean tat im such a person. no one really understands how i feel and no one really koes wats the whole situation like now...just leave me alone
mifenmei scribbles off*at`3:19:00 PM
today i went out....when i was preparing...he said "take yr time dun rush"...tis sounds familiar....rode our bikes to erp system n road tax dept to repair his spoiled system...then head down to west mall...he bought me tat small little cutie hello kitty soft toy....i asked him why he buy for me.....he say those few times when i went out with him n whenever we pass by tat shop.....saw me looking at tat.......
and a few days ago when we went far east plaza...he bought me a pair of new slippers....cos he said saw mine was torn n tattered n unwearable....
and today he poured out his heart to me...after supper....really touched....tok about a lot of tings...although he dun drink...dun chiong...dun smoke...and im exactly the opposite...but he still accept the way i am....he doesnt restrict me in doing wat i like....actions mean a thousand words....after going through so much...hurt for a million times....should i believe in love again? i cant sleep....
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:29:00 AM
tis early morning went straight to town for interview session at a spa in paragon...and i got tat job as receptionist...tat person ask me to start wk next mon...and i have decided....as much as i really dun like and cant bear to leave my golden hair....i will still dye back to a darker colour...cos my current colour is not allowed if im going to wk there....tis type of ting must sacrifice a bit la...im broke....and i dun like the feeling of tat one single bit...
then after tat settle walk around town with frien...and first time go town so early with less pple around...and went to settle our lunch at mac...after head down to bike shop pay my first installment n service my bike...reach the shop around 3pm...their after sales service really sux...there the mechanic all the same...just for some simple servicing stuff need a few hours...reach the shop around 3pm...left at 7pm...at first he was working on my bike...then when some other bikes come in he went off to them...multi-tasking ah??? must sit rite next to him and watch him then he work, wat the fuck is tis...damn pissed off, not going back to tat shop again...now found out tat my brake thingy a bit jam....tat sucks...is he servicing my bike or making it worse???
damn tired when i reach home....from waiting at the shop for hours...in fact you cant even leave the shop or they will ignore yr bike...must stay and watch them...really shitty shit...smoke dun koe how mani stick of ciggie liao still havent finish...next time should have brought my poker cards and peanuts along -_-.
was being jioed to rush...no mood..too tired...in fact i also sian liao...more impt tings to do then always chiong....is tat gd or bad =)
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:37:00 AM
lots of things happen during tis past week...all the late nights and stuff...im completely shagged out...
and during those times we were 2gather...he treats me veri well...brings me to eat good food...cared about me...but somehow or rather...i still have tat "true love doesnt exist" attitude or mentality...i dun koe wats wrong with me....really cant seem to open my heart to anyone alreadi like i used to....
last nite i went to a big coffeeshop in jurong...a lot of stalls...and then got one particular drink stall play all the rush techno so loud...i was so surprised...and of cos i went to sit at the table nearest to tat stall...really very shiok...and the uncle at the stall was like dancing to the music -_- really such a good atmosphere!
mifenmei scribbles off*at`6:45:00 PM
tis few days like seldom go online...so tired but dun koe why...
today finally finish my last day of wk....just reach hm...and i took 1hr to reach home loh, cos i lost my way again. but at least still managed to get home. lolz. 1 stupid thing is tat dun like to park my bike at tat UE square carpark...scared of all those drunkards and veri dangerous some of them might try to steal yr bike parts....fri n sat ride bike go wk...i was tinking of it for the whole time i was wking....then today i park there, i tink some1 go and bend my mirror..now loose liao....idiot......
finally quit my job at dblo....but i will be wking at another place....the penny black at boat quay...but still havent start lah...i bluff them say next week i cannot...cos i wan chiong and enjoy myself for a whole week before i start wk again...anyway...i guess tis new job is more flexible...got morning shift and noon shift...so i can continue to chiong again without any worries!!! haha...will see how it goes....
a few hrs later going to meet my frien go wash bike liao....i tink washing bike is a form of exercising loh...really very tiring wan leh....then later at nite me going rush...
mifenmei scribbles off*at`6:52:00 AM
cb shop....tink i newbie can chop me ah!!! so many faults...so many tings never change new one for me...after i found out with my frienz...now i koe...my poor baby is sick........after comparing with all my frienz bikes....theirs so shiny and like so new compared to mine....=( cos i havent bought all those washing materials...specially for washing...i tink i must also buy tat turtle wax to polish liao....
dedicated myself next week to fully enjoy myself...before i start wking again........today and 2moro my last 2 days of wking liao loh....so sad to leave everyone...but happy at the same time too!!
so long never listen techno liao...so long never chiong rush liao.......once a week is actually not enough for me...even sometimes i also never go chiong for 2 whole weeks....i getting rush sick liao -_-
mifenmei scribbles off*at`2:19:00 PM
worked on fri n sat as usual...and for some 'unsayable reasons', i had 200 bucks. can be say as tips lah...
so on sunday...i went to my usual salon go pamper myself a bit, spent 150 bucks on cut and treatment....and the rest of the money, spluge it on things tat i long wanted to buy....so now im back to square 1. didnt occur to me tat i should save the money for future use. just wanted to get wat i wan since i haf cash..
and then went rush for a while only....then go PIE expressway test my speed with my buddy...highest speed i have gone is 140.dun koe can go faster a nt..i tink can lah, next time try again. after riding..found a stupid bird shit behind my seat...and one of my head light bulb burst..fucking mad.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`5:22:00 PM
arhhh i so ...................... sometimes i dun koe wat u are tinking..fuck....
mifenmei scribbles off*at`7:14:00 AM
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mifenmei scribbles off*at`4:23:00 PM
I finally understand why the police always say "if u drink, dont drive." It may be a simple logic...bcos you are seh so u dont drive. actually, even when u are not seh or wat, it is dangerous bcos your anaytical skills will slow down..and you cannot tink as clearly and cannot react fast enough.
tats wat happen to me loh last nite. no, i didnt go chiong, i just went to nearby coffeeshop for some prata with friens then i saw nearby our table got 2 malay guys drinking beer...then i told my frien they making me gian...haha...then in the end we order bottles of tiger to drink. wah really long long time never drink liao loh...then after tat ride bike go home, i still can listen to my cd player while riding loh, damn shiok..all techno...but then ah, as i know myself my reaction skills alreadi very slow liao, then now after drink liao, even more slow...haiz dun wan to say liao...go petrol station pump petrol can also 4got where are my keys and is rite in front of me and i was not even seh or wat!!!
and today got 1 lorry driver bo tai bo ji horn me for dun koe wat...didnt do anyting wrong loh...stupid driver...anyway i already no feeling to pple horning at me liao....cos kana a lot of times liao...haha....wan to horn let them horn la i dun give a damn.....
oh ya and ytd i go and paste 1 hello kitty sticker on my bike.... =)
later...working time again... =(
mifenmei scribbles off*at`3:51:00 PM
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