just reach home...back from wk...wah liao today i drink more than fri sia...my wk place most of the customer is regular...i tink the more pple u koe...the more u will drink loh...more n more like must have PR skills also....'ta' a lot lah......so shiok ah got free beer to drink........tink i no need to go chiong liao.....oni lacks techno therre..haaha.....so shiok!! like now like quite seh but dun feel like vomiting........but veri seh........-_- 2moro can go drink again!!! hahaha
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:00:00 AM
its a hot sunday afternoon. have been lazing around at home for the whole day. nowadays never sleep until so much liao. slept at 4am ytd nite and woke up at 8am. and never went back to bed since then.
lets see last friday nite i was wking again until 1am...i played dai dee and 5-10 with a table of pple.....by the time 11 plus i alreadi a bit feel like vomiting liao...but not so bad lah...feel like oni....then keep on go toilet pee.....as u koe drink beer veri easy pee wan loh........but after i walk here walk there a while then ok liao....after tat closing liao still feel a bit full with the water all in my stomach....still go and eat supper......dun koe wats wrong with me n him......always quarrel.....sick of it sometimes....our tinking completely different......sometimes really veri angry with certain tings..forever asking me to go in a corner and tink about wat i have done. wat the fuck!! maybe u dun koe but do u realise tat everytime we quarrel im the first who call u back and say sorry!??!!
slept until late afternoon on sat....cos really veri tired....my bones n back realli going to break liao......so weak rite...wanted to go shopping with frien but cancel cos too late liao. then go dblo return uniform......then eat dinner...then go home.....go home still eat chicken wings n maggie mee.......
now i haf stomach muscle pain cos tat time do 50 sit ups at dearie hse cos cannot slp!! n haf muscle cramp also......i tink i really having pms... -_- tis morning wanted to go eat breakfast with you then u wan to slp. i hear your voice like not happy not happy like tat then i also sian dun go better. wan to go watch movie with u also then go n find other excuse. end up quarrelling. i dun understand. i give up.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`4:05:00 PM
ytd wake up then go wk again...wk was fine...when i reach the wk place oni got 2 customers....i went to happily play pool with one of the customer....and later in the nite....i had happily drink a few mugs of beer during wk and smoke also but not a lot lah. had beers at 3 different tables....looking at the tips tat they left for us after leaving, got a sense of satisifaction....haaha......some more got a period of time can chose my own songs to play....best men.....never know tat i can have so much fun while working!!
after wk dearie come n pick me n haf supper and he bought so much stuff, cookies, ice-cream, degreaser, and a cleo mag for me, i spent the time reading cleo still havent read finish.....while dear play computer games and watch those funny videos he keep on laughing until i veri pek chek wanted to scold him but tink to myself better not better control my temper later tings get worse again.
i woke up first about noon time.....luckily today no wk...after a while head home....found theres stupid bird poo again on my bike, tis time is more gross and more grean...sucks......got any more suay a not.....and oh ya the bird poo havent wipe out yet......later haha........then bath n watch tv n eat dinner at home, so long never eat home cook food liao, always i go wk before dinner is ready.
got frien just jio me go newton circus eat....better not......im on diet........but then ate some instant noodle after tat....now like cannot sleep......oh ya today i never smoke!!! happy for myself...all rite it will be the first stick for today...haha......
mifenmei scribbles off*at`11:14:00 PM
today woke up about 2...shiok men feel like slping some more...raining some more....then eat some maggie mee...and go wk liao....
today was suppossed to wk until 12..but i went off at 10..cos veri few pple....nothing much to do today also...after tat haf supper with dearie....had a long chat with him.....find tat a lot of prob between us....now history is going to repeat itself......i really love him a lot but just tat i oni unhappy about the way he tried to change me.....if tis continues...i dun koe wat will happen....i did not feel sad......just feel why heaven is so unfair.....i tink i really not suited to be in a relationship...
dun wan to tink about so much liao...just let nature take its course...now just wan to concentrate on my wk and earn more money and prepare to cry for my results which is coming out soon. i hope the plane from london not working so they no need to fly back with all our exam papers. hope 2nite will rain again so i can sleep until shiok shiok again...
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:32:00 AM
just come back from work...quite tiring sia today..quite a lot of customers....today the first time i fried the chicken wings and sotong balls...kana splash by the oil...kaoz...then after closing drink beer with the bosses and collegues, after tat ride home, less than 5min reach home liao. bath and now i sitting down in front of the computer, my feet so suan. tue n wed wking again...haiz..but gd...can learn a lot of tings...must learn kj also....fun la......
mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:24:00 AM
sometimes i really dun koe wat u are tinking. get mad at me and ask me to go home for no reason and keep on telling me to go home and tink about wat i have done and do i really wan us to be together. wtf. when u told me i lose my temper again, i really have no idea did i really lose my temper a nt as i was in dreamland. i hate it when always i wanted to storm off and he will say"are you sure" is kind of threatening bcos in my heart i dun really wan to leave. but now, its just so unbearing just too much to take.
i always dun like pple haf bf and gf liao dun go out with frienz tat often liao, and seem tat i am doing this myself. why i wan to torture myself i dun understand myself. sometimes i really dun koe whether i should just move on or try to change myself for him. i always tink about this problem as im not the type who could do all this..but then i always tot tat its worth it to maintain tis relationship. if oni u could be more understanding towards me.
he tell me i take him for granted...wtf...i just dun understand wat cause him to say tat. i show care and concern not veri openly i should say, or i dun koe how to express myself...he always tell me all my bad points in my face...which is veri heart breaking for me but i koe is true. and i sometimes wonder whether do he really deserve tis kind of gal?
"why must u hurt me" he told me..in my heart i tinking why dun he come into my shoes and understand wat i have been going through..its really not easy for me....im really grateful for all the tings he had done for me...cared about me..showered me with love...but he is changing me until i lose all my interest in everyting and i dun like it at all. if not for tat damn clubbing incident, i would have continued to go clubbing as and when i wish..i koe im at fault tat y i stop gg chiong, but for other tings, even though i have temper veri easily, irresponsible, inconsiderate, playful, dun value life, or watever shit tat he tell me, these are still a part of me rite? i really cannot take it anymore.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`6:08:00 AM
today found my bike leaking petrol...faster go to workshop...always i go there i will lose my temper easily dun koe why...
cant believe we quarrelled over how dangerously i ride just now.....ridicululous.....okie i haf alreadi said sorry rite...just got an urge to ride fast also when tat guy rode past me, i koe its dangerous i alreadi said sorry. i lose my temper but i also got apologise rite. wat the hell. dun need to shout at me. i hate pple who shout at me and tell me wat to do. i cant go chiong with the rest of the guys liao......wat more do you expect...cant believe i would ever dun go chiong for a guy...really dun believe....wat haf i become........just wan u to koe tat by not going clubbing im making a big sacrifice....
lastly i have to say...dun change a person all at once....im not perfect u koe. if u dun like my bad points, and u dun like it, i will try my best to change. if u still tink tat im not changing at all or watever, or u have veri high hopes of me, or u are not happy with the way i do things or not happy with my character, i rather u leave. as simple as tat.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`9:11:00 PM
today was my first day of wk at the ktv pub...it was ok...best ting is...can smoke...drink...sing song...play pool with customers...got any more shiok a not...but still got a lot of tings to learn lah...i tink is a nice place...some more is near my house....now a bit tired ah...just now after wk eat supper with dearie then went home...2moro my first day of wk at a rest at holland village again....hope everyting goes well....
mifenmei scribbles off*at`2:19:00 AM
just came home...after 2 nights not at home....luckily nobody around....more and more feel like a stranger in this house man..ya and i got 2 part time jobs confirmed liao...both starting next week...hope everyting goes smoothly and i will stick to those jobs...and no excuse i cant wake up again..cos its in the nite...shiok....after i saw the amt of money left in my bank account...i was startled...can i say im always startled...time to be down for some serious wk. =)
mifenmei scribbles off*at`5:19:00 PM
i cant sleep. so dearie and i just came home from supper. he said today he ate too much tings liao feel like vomiting..earlier in the day...ate our breakfast at 3pm some half-boiled eggs and toast. then do our errands, i went for another interview and paid my bike installment and went ps walk walk and went collect his hp, then ate pastamania. nowadays like cant sleep at tis kind of timing. oni can sleep in the morning loh. tink too used to nightlife liao. and now eat this. im going to grow fat at tis rate man.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`3:38:00 AM
washing my bike can be damn tiring. maintaining it is even harder sia. never wash for several weeks liao. good and the oni exercise for me since i dun exercise much. someday i have to learn to do it all by myself. glad like shit tat today is national day, everyone is at home. or rather, not. sis just went out of the hse. bro 4ever sticking his eyes on the computer screen. and parents just went out too. goodie good i can have some peace...
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nowadays always at home ah..got watch the jue dui superstar on channel u...everyone should watch loh..i like silver ^_^
mifenmei scribbles off*at`11:06:00 AM
1 more month to sch reopen...timetable come out liao...holiday like so long. results havent even come out yet..but tink going to liao...dun koe they will mail me or must check myself. so excited dun koe i will pass a nt.if i pass all my sub i tink i can jump down from window liao. tis holiday a lot of tings happen...had a lot of fun too. time to be serious bout my studies liao. so excited to go back to sch!!
mifenmei scribbles off*at`4:11:00 AM
dearie and i went for supper just now. i finally told him the truth. finally told him wat was going on. he was mad like hell. first time i really see him so bo hiew me. first time seeing him losing his temper. first time hearing him shout at me. i really really felt terrible. i could feel all the anger letting out of him..just like keeping inside his heart for ages. i koe just by saying sorry is not enough. i betrayed your trust in me. u gave me a chance, but i knew tat i could never gain yr trust again. just someting to let u koe tat i have never imagined tat anyone else on tis earth would have cared to change me for the better. after tinking about it, i also dun koe wat have caused me to do tat. hurts me a lot. i kept on tinking to tell u the truth better? or not? or try and run away from reality as usual...but after wat u have told me about honesty..decided to tell u no matter wat are the circumstances..decided to face it...i guess i have only myself to blame..it goes down to my actions. wat i did. my actions caused a lot of pple to be hurt. i dont mean to hurt anyone. as wat u have said, its true tat u wont cherish it until u lose it. its so true. u are really arent like other any guy. first time in my life i wondered, how could i ever meet a guy like tis? its so unbelieveable just as i have lost all hope in love. u are not stupid. im the one whos stupid. dun koe how to treasure. dun koe wat is right or wrong.
now u have given me a chance again-conditions to quit clubbing, to smoke, not to take drugs again. as u have said, if i were to say i could do all tat, its certainly impossible. but i will try my very best to do so. i koe nothing i say will work. if u really wan me to quit clubbing, i will do it although its hard for u to believe, but i koe even so, things will never be the same again...i oni got myself to blame. if u still cant accept me..maybe u will be happier with another not so 'bad' gal as me like yr frienz have said, maybe its better for you. sometimes i think tat i really dun deserve tis kind of love from you. just deserve love from playboys. after all, oni playgirls will match with playboys.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`7:29:00 AM
On wed, went for another walk in interview at clarke quay, tat sux, everyting was so unorganised, then at town irvin n me sit down starbucks chat...then head down to rush with michelle and jeff. its ladies nite, and there's the dance competition going on also. halfway, decided to go find jen, tot can go inside o bar but cannot go in must after 6mths then go in. feeling quite disappointed, went back to rush. me n jeff n irvin keep on playing tat frog jump game n 5-10, and after dun koe how long mich then come. looking at her, i so feel like crying, there is so mani tings i wanted to tell her but tat day wasnt the time to realli tok at all. dance and laugh and shouted but actually deep down feeling quite terrible. after tat they went chinablack...i didnt go...stayed out...so mani ting i wanted to say but realli cant say. today whole day stay out also. dun koe wat the hell am i doing. ytd got a call from siam kitchen ask me start wk on sat. hope history wont repeat itself again.
mifenmei scribbles off*at`10:08:00 PM
this few days the events...sun nite-went rush loh..got irvin, guowei, fabian....long time no see them la..catch up with a lot of tings about their life...rode my bike go chiong in the end nv ride back loh...somebody should know why....
next day leh...go back mohd sultan collect my bike then sudd so feel like being a guai kid and went to jurong library with dearie go borrow some books to read...all romance books lehz..haha...spent inside library for quite some time...the environment make me wan to sleep...but then ah, inside still got tat cafe galieee or wat la, go there eat some sandwich and milkshake and read some magazine, then after tat go home liao.
then today leh, i went for more interviews again. seems tat i like to go interviews than i like to go for wk...tis time once i wk i must stay in the job liao...with dearie go bugis junction walk walk, and went to tat terra cafe to eat until so full, after tat still go a bit of rounding then go bkt timah alameen eat prata and fries and tok cock some more, so now reach home liao. i tink this few days i really eat a lot loh, i feeling so guilty, later before sleep must do some sit ups liao....and i so long never drink beer....i tink im getting alcoholic....
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mifenmei scribbles off*at`1:03:00 AM
More and more feel like i am truly a job-hopper. i cant do tis anymore. lots of tings are happening. its like i dun need or little sleep at all. i wan to have a simple life. just sleep at home everyday, once a while go out only.. or to say...i dun have time management...cant manage it well..tat why when someting new comes into my life...sudd i dun haf time for everyting...
mifenmei scribbles off*at`11:32:00 AM
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