dearie and i went for supper just now. i finally told him the truth. finally told him wat was going on. he was mad like hell. first time i really see him so bo hiew me. first time seeing him losing his temper. first time hearing him shout at me. i really really felt terrible. i could feel all the anger letting out of him..just like keeping inside his heart for ages. i koe just by saying sorry is not enough. i betrayed your trust in me. u gave me a chance, but i knew tat i could never gain yr trust again. just someting to let u koe tat i have never imagined tat anyone else on tis earth would have cared to change me for the better. after tinking about it, i also dun koe wat have caused me to do tat. hurts me a lot. i kept on tinking to tell u the truth better? or not? or try and run away from reality as usual...but after wat u have told me about honesty..decided to tell u no matter wat are the circumstances..decided to face it...i guess i have only myself to blame..it goes down to my actions. wat i did. my actions caused a lot of pple to be hurt. i dont mean to hurt anyone. as wat u have said, its true tat u wont cherish it until u lose it. its so true. u are really arent like other any guy. first time in my life i wondered, how could i ever meet a guy like tis? its so unbelieveable just as i have lost all hope in love. u are not stupid. im the one whos stupid. dun koe how to treasure. dun koe wat is right or wrong.
now u have given me a chance again-conditions to quit clubbing, to smoke, not to take drugs again. as u have said, if i were to say i could do all tat, its certainly impossible. but i will try my very best to do so. i koe nothing i say will work. if u really wan me to quit clubbing, i will do it although its hard for u to believe, but i koe even so, things will never be the same again...i oni got myself to blame. if u still cant accept me..maybe u will be happier with another not so 'bad' gal as me like yr frienz have said, maybe its better for you. sometimes i think tat i really dun deserve tis kind of love from you. just deserve love from playboys. after all, oni playgirls will match with playboys.
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